Of course I am being melodramatic to the extreme but I am a bit terrified by what I've done. It can't be undone which results in a big That's That.
I am freakishly behind on my book reviews, and I am behind on two raw manuscript reviews that I need to read but I guess the tardiness is good because it means I've been working on projects. The first project that is complete and now for sale on Amazon is my second chapbook of poems, "The Yellow Staircase".
As a project this terrifies me because the poems contained within are vicious, depraved, heartbroken, lustful, foul-mouthed,and straight up pornographic (some of them are at least.) It is a collection I am uncomfortable with releasing, especially imagining the idea of someone I know face to face reading it and thinking they can glean things about me which they'd not known. Some of the poems are reprints from other magazines, one of them even won an award, but the majority of the volume is untested on readers, and never put through an editor.
I really felt I had to put this together and get it done however. It marks my first foray into self publishing, and in a way is a tester for how to work the process. It also marks the purging of a huge weight that has been sitting in my heart for the better part of a year. It was a horrible mix of emotions that had to leave me in some way or other and pulling them out and putting them on paper (no matter how ugly they are) has really helped me along.
I am selling the chapbook for a few dollars less than a chapbook goes for, $6.00 for 33 poems, and 56 pages. There is a fragile storyline threading the poems, the setting is a shattering relationship as seen through the eyes of a disillusioned and angry girl who has entrusted her confidence to a fraud of a fortune teller who has stolen her words and sold them to the world.
If you are feeling adventurous, curious, or just plain voyeuristic, please do go ahead and buy the volume of poems! I will be eternally grateful. If you buy "The Yellow Staircase" and enjoy it, I would very much welcome a review posted to Amazon to help get the word out. I am advertising the chapbook only here and on Twitter, so I can use all the help I can get!
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Love and Hugs to All of You! xxx